I’m a deep-thinking millennial (1991) introvert who was born and raised in Tottenham, North London. A Lightworker (New Age Spiritual term), or to be better said, an Old Soul.
I live with my fiancé Aizel, my dog Faline and my cat Simba somewhere outside of a city in the UK.
I want to help everyone break norms, empower and uplift people by expanding their awareness. I’m also here to have no filter and be blunt, so that you don’t have to lol.
I enjoy a slow-paced lifestyle and solitude. I’m passionate about hiking / nature walks, as it’s an escape from the pressures of normal day life and a way I can be immersed in nature and away from traffic, noise, crowds and people.
I also enjoy expressing my thoughts by writing with authenticity.
My Spiritual Awakening
After having to put my dog Cupid down due to a heart disease in 2022, I went through a spiritual awakening / ego death and a kundalini awakening. I experienced moments of depression and dark nights of the soul (a spiritual term). I felt like I lost a big part of me and even had feelings like I could’ve done more to save Cupid, and feeling intense moments of sadness and existential crises. I loved my dog Cupid so much – he was always there for me whenever I felt depressed and lonely going through mid to late 20s, and I had plans of taking him to places with me.
Whilst grieving and getting on during my day to day life, things would draw my attention such as spirituality. I started looking into how religions formed, paranormal and supernatural experiences, what is consciousness, looking into manifestation, different methods of meditation, I wondered why ancient civilizations had similar depictions, I started looking into esoteric knowledge, occultism, watching videos about the gnostic texts, and even looking into conspiracies. Overall I started digging into the truth on why we’re actually here and where we came from.
I felt closer to nature – I started hiking and going on nature walks every week.
I always considered myself to be fairly religious but I came to the realisation that I was installed with a belief just because I was taught that belief from childhood and due to the fact of where I was born. I used to be Roman Catholic. I attended Catholic schools and I went to a Jesuit secondary school, and have been a strong believer of God my whole life, without ever thinking to myself… Who is God?
During / after my spiritual awakening I realised that religions are human-made beliefs and are a myth reinterpretation of earlier cultural myths. The New Testament is just humans writing about God and certain events about Jesus. God did not write the Bible or the Quran but that’s for another discussion.
That’s not to say there’s no higher power, it’s just to say our evidence just isn’t sufficient enough to justify God being a man, or a ‘being’ and even whether all the scriptures are true and how accurate were the events that took place described in all ancient texts (especially in the bibles case, if they were written many decades after Jesus’s death).
Over 1 to 2 years of being in nature every week, meditating everyday, changing the way I think whether that be listening to affirmations, controlling what I see on any type of media I own and who I surround myself with, I started to notice my mental health started to become better and I felt ‘lighter’. I started to feel more in awe every time I’m in nature.
I also felt like I had this spark or fire in me that wanted to get up and do the best I can do in everything I do with love, and stay true to myself whilst also moving with unconditional love, compassion, understanding, forgiveness, empathy, being fearless and protecting my peace, and not to judge other people whatever state of consciousness they are in.
(In Spirituality we call this ‘5D Consciousness’ or even ‘Christ Consciousness’. Spirituality say the return of Christ was misinterpreted, as it was a return of Christ Consciousness within all of us. Just to note that the word ‘Christ’ is not Jesus’s / Yeshua’s last name. Christ comes from the Greek word Christós which means anointed one – which was a title given to Jesus)
Once I was aware of my thoughts, feelings and emotions and my overall ‘state-of-being’ I realised I was in a state of getting into an ‘observer mode’ (which can feel you’re going crazy sometimes). Ever since then, I have been very sensitive to energy, in an observer mode all the time, clairvoyant and connected with the whole Universe’s energy and everyone else’s energy.
My views on religion and humans as a collective
I think the approach we need as a human collective to live in peace without separation is not to invalidate each other’s beliefs, as that’s what they are – beliefs systems, spiritual concepts, spiritual frameworks… Which can be based on groups of people / cultures or scriptures which eventually result in a label, and then result in certain rituals, practices, ceremonies, traditions, ways of worshipping. These beliefs can influence our life shaping perspectives for the better or even in harmful ways. Things can lose meaning and get taken out of context over time. I think we always have to be mindful of this and never be afraid to question our own beliefs.
We even need to have a worldwide mutual agreement that the answer is ‘I don’t know’ to the main question of our metaphysical nature of our existence is ‘Why are we here?’, as all of our beliefs rephrase the answer in different ways (to those who do wonder, I suggest looking into the Annunaki).
We should even mutually agree that just because we don’t know which spiritual concept is true by facts and evidence, that doesn’t mean you can’t have faith without knowing the nature of our reality whilst still moving with love, compassion, peace and logic.
One conversation I really like is this – just a prime example of a mature conversation between two Christians (Cliffe and Stuart Knechtle) and an Atheist (Alex O’Connor) discussing slavery and genocide in the bible.
We need people from all beliefs to sit together and just have mature discussions with smiles and stop blindly naming things and each other as evil or demonic without doing the research, then hopefully we as a human collective can reach Oneness and Unity Consciousness.
Unfortunately misconceptions with certain beliefs can carry negative feelings towards it due to the followers of that certain belief (for example, New Age Spirituality can seem woowoo due to the followers who seem to be more into crystals tarot astrology etc, or Christianity can seem very defined and hierarchal, and the followers can seem worship worship blind faith before your own mental wellbeing sort of vibe). We have to remember to take a step back into what the belief actually is, not the followers of the beliefs.
I advise everyone to do their own research on all religions and spiritual beliefs and use your own discernment, we all have free will to choose.
I’ve realised that even debating religions can be pointless cause we’re at this point where we know there are contradictions and mistranslations in the bible, and we have now shed light and puts things into perspective on how books like The New Testament was formed over many years after Jesus’s death, also things like genocide and slavery is now highlighted on The Old Testament which makes us question what religion was actually used for before Jesus came into the story, and you can’t debate religious followers cause they’ll just quote their book as if it was created by God, and they live in way too much fear if they were to question their belief or bible.
It’s like we’re all sort of going off what spiritual concept resonates with us at our current point in time due to our life experiences and feelings.
My Supernatural / Paranormal Experiences
I’ve experienced various paranormal experiences. I’ve had premonition dreams, and have had signs from the spiritual realms in this physical reality.
I don’t expect anyone to believe anything I say, especially due to the rise of AI and with so much information in the internet, it can be hard to determine who’s spreading information for clout, following and self-gain but here’s examples of some supernatural I’ve caught on camera.
During a nature walk in the Chiltern Hills, I felt a random moment of sadness so I asked with pure intention, concentration and thought in my mind ‘Cupid (my dog who passed away), if you can hear this, can give me a sign if I did the right thing for you’. Me and my fiancé were in a sort of meditative walking trance state. 5 to 10 minutes later I look up, then bam. The clouds appeared like this – which look like a P in a shape of a heart. I was shocked and we were super excited, and then we felt like this radiant energy of love.
Here’s another moment caught in our Ring camera with my spirit guide. Sometime in July 2025 I was going through a moment of frustration because I was complaining that this system we humans use is ass (how we have to use money and people have to work) and I felt burnt out overall. I asked my spirit guide to give me a sign if I’m on the right path to help people cause I’m about to give up on society and work itself. A few minutes later, me and my fiancé heard a scream (sounded like a fox scream) so my initial reaction was to check our CCTV as I usually do whenever I feel suspicious, then bam we noticed an Orb. We both felt shocked and then a radiant energy of bliss.
I have edited the footage below by zooming in for the purpose of highlighting the orb. The original is the video below it.
In January 2026 – we were viewing our Ring camera live to see if our cat Simba would come home, then we noticed a lot of Orbs, so we said ‘go ham and spiral!’. Then guess what, they did 😀 ❤ check time stamp 1:35 on the video. We were so happy and excited lol.
(to the folks who don’t believe me, or thinks I would edit this for whatever reason – I don’t get anything out of this blog and I couldn’t care less about seeking attention and don’t care whether you believe me or not)
Today’s Society
Something I still notice in today’s society are people who either aren’t true to themselves, lack self-confidence, seek attention and validation or move with ego due to insecurities or trauma, or are not aware of their traumas, have outdated belief systems, are closed-minded and may have a victim mentality mindset (they tend to be the cause of their own suffering without even knowing) or even still living by norms from the pressure of other people, and I notice people don’t even know what they want.
How we carry ourselves as humans will show and influence each other – we need more genuine authentic resilient people on this Earth to show that genuine people of all skin colours, ages, beliefs, religions, backgrounds, cultures, social classes, nationalities, gender expressions, sexual orientations and physical styles of expressions do exist to raise the collective consciousness so we can help everyone reach enlightenment and bring Heaven to Earth. Unfortunately some of us humans can have a bit of a sheep mentality, we see someone that we can relate to or resonate with, so we get influenced by that person.
Modern life can cause us to always look externally putting us in a comparison of lives and even feel like we have this void which can never be fulfilled due to not feeling good enough or not knowing what we want. Mainstream media is just full of negative stories with bias one-sided agendas which affects our subconscious mind by feeding negative stories such as war, struggle, crime etc. Think about how much difference it would be if the mainstream media was full of positive heart warming news.
Pretty sure every topic about life has been covered on the internet but the more people normalise things and spread information to help each other reach their full potential on an individual mental and spiritual level to be more authentic, and break norms, the more people will reach a state of enlightenment, and the more enlightened individuals, the better place the world will be. I feel like social media, YouTube or blogs is the wave, and we can use these tools to raise the collective consciousness like wildfire.
I want to leave my imprint on the internet on my experiences and thoughts on life and the metaphysical /spiritual nature of our existence with this blog. I’m just someone who wants everyone to be at peace with themselves and be enlightened, and I’m someone who wants change in this world.
That change starts with us.
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